„Zmierzch będzie zapadał”, albo Historia Bianki

Abstrakt

Joseph saw Bianca for the first time when “she was wearing a white dress, slender and calligraphic as if the had been out of the Zodiac.” Then he had no way out – he could not stop dreaming about meeting her once more. His dreams came true but not as a typical love story, but the moment when one says “the sweetest, quietest, and saddest things” and after that there is no consolation but the falling dusk. Joseph begins to study Bianca’s secret with insistence and despair, and his effort resembles studying a spring dusk. Who was Bianca and what is this dusk which falls inevitably whenever she starts talking about something most important? This is the basic question to which Joseph tries to find an answer. She was an Infant Queen and the Messiah at the same time. And both aspects Joseph almost managed to prove or at least acquire faith in their existence realized in terms of abduction and suffering. But Bianca was also a Woman who realized “fully” only her female aspect. That aspect of her Joseph could neither predict or fully understand. He could not bear it or defeat it in the realms “above and beneath” Bianca’s flesh. The Woman won in her and that victory liberated a Demon which brought Joseph to madness, his highest idea to total bankruptcy, and his love to incessantly falling dusk. Joseph never experienced the erotic womanhood of Bianca, but he experienced its demonism. He failed to revive in her the Infant Queen and the Messiah – she made her own choice.